Half way there.

Well Ho's a million tears and 620 miles later, Tug has made it half way to Fargo. I'm currently in Kansas City and have decided to call it a night.

Bill and I passed each other in separate cars last night in Amarillo. I was dropping Betsy off and he was headed to his hotel. It was a shocker because I wanted to talk to him. We locked eyes for just a second as if it was like old times, only to be reminded that it was not old times.

This hasn't been easy, and yes I've been told a million times. It will get better.

I have a feeling that it will get worse before it gets better. Why? Because I know last night was most likely that last time I will ever look at the Man I love, and letting go after so many years together fucking sucks. It was suppose to be forever.

Well, we will see.
Anyho.

Comments

Ken Riches said…
Glad you are simplifying work, but sorry that the relationship part is hurting you so. Time...
May 7, 2010 at 9:08 PM
Joy said…
Bless your heart!
May 7, 2010 at 11:20 PM
Miss Ginger Grant said…
I am so sorry you are hurting! I know by your posts and stories that even though you are all "tough trucker" on the outside you are a big ole sugary marshmallow on the inside with lots of love to give, and this must be terrible for you. No one can live the relationships of another, so you are the only person on Earth who really knows how it feels, and that makes it seem even more lonely!!
PLEASE know that you are loved, and you have friends who care about you. Hopefully that can help you through! And if I were there, I'd give you a big makeup-smeared hug and some red lipmarks on your sweet cheek! Take care, my friend, and keep us posted!
May 8, 2010 at 6:11 AM
the dogs' mother said…
wah! Stay safe and take your time over this. Will be thinking good thoughts.
May 8, 2010 at 6:13 AM
kayce. said…
i'm so sad for (and with) you... have a safe trip to fargo!
May 8, 2010 at 6:55 AM
mrs.missalaineus said…
be safe. ginger's right- we can never know the true depths of someone else's heartbreak, but we are here for you and cheering you on as you take baby steps into this new chapter in your life.

xxalainaxx
May 8, 2010 at 8:23 AM
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